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assalamualaikum.......
lame bangat gue nggan pos d cni..huhu..x bz pown, byk buang mase kot cuti nih.. hehe
well, now, nk cite psl experience ke hulu-hilir di waktu cuti yg pnjjgggg ini, driku terbelit dlam keseronokan waktu cuti d objek yg luas n bermasa ini.. 1st of all, well, gud news..

....KEDAH....
Alhamdulillah, abg ak telah dgn suksesnye menamatkan diploma nye.. utk bberape sem, die mndapat dekan. hebat betol! ak btol2 salute sama dia..x sia2 dia blaja jaoh2, jrg balik umah, x mcm ak nih, every wik pown blik mah..hehehe...hurmm...perjalanan yg memenatkan ke kedah ( chewah,mcmlah ak plak yg bwk kete tu..hahaha) .. wlaupun hanye sbgai pengisi ruang mesin bergerak itu, keletihan tetap dirasai. best btol mase lalu nk kat kedah tu, indah.....sawah padi terbentamg luas...agungnya ciptaanMu...Ya Allah, tp kenapalah manusia x mahu bersyukur... merenung kembali dri ni, kdg2 tu, mmg x bersyukur,x reti sabar2, kdg kala lemah...walhal baru sedikit diduga berbanding dengan saudara seIslam di Palestin, Afghanistan dan lain2.... semoga perjalanan ini mengajarku.. oleh kerana penat lelah abahku drive kereta, so, kami singgah d rumah saudareku d perak dahulu...utk merehatkan minda dan fizikal serta menumpang tdur satu malam... sudah lame rasenye ku x berkunjung ke rumah itu,...sebegitu tenang... ak teringat kembali peristiwa tika ayah saudaraku meninggal dunia beberapa tahun lpas..tika sepupuku yg masih kecil dkejut dr tdurnya oleh kakaknye, dan diberitahu bhw ayahnye sudah meninggal....
wajah naif nye , x mengerti ape2 yg dikatakan kepadanya..sdih,pilu... namun, aku bersyukur mereka sekeluarga masih meneruskan perjalanan hidup sperti biase, alhamdulillah... sembang2 dgn ibu saudaraku, rancak dia bercerita ttg perkembangan pengajian anak2nye.. tabah sgguh mreke... Allah tentu tahu yg terbaek utk hambaNya. setiap yg berlaku ada hikmahnya.. pg2 esoknye, kami troskan perjalanan ke kedah....wah, indah betol pemandangan... ak dah jd hyperexcited! haha..term yg aku cipta sendiri.. sampainya d kedah, kami menginap di rumah yg disediakan oleh pihak tempat belajar abang aku,..rumah itu terletak d Taman Siswa, Bandar Darul Aman..bru 2 kali sebenarnya kami sampai d tempat abgku ni.. sekali semasa hantar dan sekali semasa konvo.. jaoh bangat sih!huhu...so hepy!akhirnya smpai gak..namun, kehepian dipecahkan oleh suatu peristiwa or perbuatan yg ak kre agk sengal ye..haha...toiletries/brg2 mandian kami, yg terletak dalm satu bekas, tertinggal d perak, rumah saudare tempat kami menginap..oleh kerana kelupaan adikku mengambilnya..apelagi, lepas kemas2 brg tu, kami pown berjalan bertiga, aku, adikku, mamaku ke kedai runcit berhampiran, memborong toiletries , dan x lpe juge maggi serta jajan2 yg laen..hihi...alkisahnye, malam tuh, kami kluar mkn... pastu blik umah, tup2 adik ku yg lelaki pula tersilap membawa kotak kasut...disangkenya kasut abg aku,rpe2nya kasut ayahku yang dibantainye bawak...haisshhh, abg aku dah kelam kabut..cpat2 kami sume kuar balik, naek kete balik dan menuju ke pasaraya berdekatan... naseb baek jumpe gak kasut kulit kaler hitam.. die mengomel2 sendirian dan bersungut kerana kecuaiannya meletakkan kasutnya d tempat yg saah, walhal dia sudah mewar-warkan dengan bannge dan confidentnya dia telah membeli sepasang kasut polo hasil gajinya d kedai buku...mestilah nak kasut cunkan, konvo ..hari bersejarah...anugerah dekan....sultan pulak yg bagi... last2, dgan sdeynya, kasut B_T_, tidak perlulah rasenye utk dijelaskan d cni, apekah brand kasut itu..hehe..akak promoter kasut tu, baek lak tu...saba je melayan kerenah abg ak, yg dah kelam kelibut, bgitu jua ibuku yg sentiasa tenang..heeheeeheee...keesokan harinya, tbalah hari yg dinantikan...jeng3...amboi,berseri2 mke abg ak..hehe..abg aku di antara org d dalam kumpulan pertama yg naik pentas...seronok btol ak tgk die... wish u gud luck 4 ur future , yeop! selesai majlis, keluarga aku berjumpa dengan keluarga kwn abg aku, yg menjadi keluarga angkat kepada abgku, sepnjg die d sana...keluarga yg besar...byk kanak2...ak suke... baby die pown aku dukung...sukati je, padehal x penah jumpe pon sbelum ni...hehe...sgt chumelll.. kami menginap lg satu hari d stu, n kami pulang keesokan harinye....perjalanan yg membawa banyak makna...seronok tgk satu family ak bergelak2 bersama...bkan setiap hari kami dpt precious moment mcm ni...mane taknya, abg ak blaja, ak pon blaja...so, nk kumpul bsame ni, agk susah..ade waktu2 nye..alhamdulillah, d sebalik peristiwa peninggalan pelbagai benda, kami berjaya menyempurnakan misi kami..hehe..

.....PAHANG.....
yeah! great! cool! beberapa minggu yg lepas, kami pergi menjadi tetamu di Cameron Highlands.. best...kami pergi melalui Tapah.. khuatir aku akan pening, sbbnye jalan kan pusing2...sedangkan dlu matrix n9 , lalu bukit putus yg pendek je jln2 pusingnye, pun hampir membuat aku putus asa dalam menahan pening dan muntah..huhu..tp alhamdulillah, ok je mase naek cameron tu... Subhanallah, indahnye alam ciptaanNya..terpesona ak melihat keindahan pemandangan di atas sana..hingga terdian melihat pemandangan air terjun yg luasanye kecil, ttpi terdapat di byk tempat d sepanjang jalan.. sehinggakan adik ak bertanya, eh, nana,kenape ko diam?? haha...mmg pelik kalo ak diam..daun2 rimbun pokok menutup silaunya matahari.. tebalnya hutan2 yg x digondol kerane kerakusan manusia,...bau daun yg menusuk hidung...mnyamankan...dan menenangkan... tu psl, ak lbih byk diam dr bercakap d ats ini..oh ya, x lupa kami turut melihat org asli..yup, rumahnya..aktiviti mereka d sepanjang jalan.. wajah mereka mmg baek2 ...ramah2...ade yg tersenyum dan mengangkat tangan umpama menyambut kedatangan kami....masih x tercapai dek akalku, melihat golongan ini masih survive hidup dalam kawasan sebegini di sebalik komodenan yg kte capai skarang ni....kagum.. terlihat d tepi jalan sekumpulan ibu dan anak2, ade yg dipegang, ade yg diletak di belakang badan, mereka berjalan sambil si ibu membawa sesuatu d tangan..ak kira, mungkin hendak menghantar bekalan makanan dan minuman untuk suaminya yang bekerja d hutan2.. pemandangan yg slalu kte tgk d tv skarang d depan mata aku...sesampainya di Brinchang, kami menginap di sebuah bilik hotel...tidak lah besar bilik nya, tp alhamdulillah, bolehlah kami berenam duduk ngan selesa...yelah, bukan senang nk cari tempat menginap d musim cuti sekolah ni...semasa di cameron, kami berkunjung ke cactus point, taman rama2... ladang strawbery xlah men jadi pilihan utama kami, sbb kami pon xlah ske sgt nk mkn strawbery..nk bli byk2 pown wat pe..teruja tgk pokok2 cactus yg besar!2.. dan juga rama2...i really luvvv butterfly...d cni, aku sertakan gambar2 kami...jemput2lah tgk..hehe

alhamdulillah... :)

salam... alhamdulillah.... i got my result n thanX to Allah... yeay! finally got da result dat i want! thanx 2 gg btw..huhu... kalo die xde, sape laa nk tgk kan..hehe... thanx 2 gg also bcoz helping my frens...well, he was dealing wif list of matrix no yesterday!hehehe... I am very hepY! wat dat made me felt soooo touched, was ,,, my dearest mama.. after back from office, msuk2 je rumah, abruptly (is dis word too...melampaw??..haha) she hugged n kiss me, say congratz 2 me :) ... sweeeeeettt moment!!
hehe... actually, during 1st sem, my result was not so gud. n she kept telling me bout her fren's daughter , who got A+... mase tu kan, dlm hati ni... cm ade 1 spirit utk tros berusahe!!
chaiyok!2... I try my best,(eventhough x get A+..hehe)..alhamdulillah ... wif His will , I can achieved dis....i am really glad bcoz my parents was very hepy:) .. ku x sgka, rupa2 nya, kwn ku berkata ak ni nerd sebenanye..apekaa???? tidakkkkk!!!!hahaha...btw, thanx to my fres yg tlong byk...especially krol, kery, alia, lyn..n others dat help me including da lecturers... special thanx 2 dr syed baharom, dr flossy, dr rowland n other beloved lecturers...jasamu dikenang. ..wateve it is, it is a long journey 2 go...4 years ... lame tuu... but, know wat, i kinda luv dis medic student life now.. u know, stress, struggle, not enough time 2 rest, bunch n bunch of notes, info 2 remembe... best pe... mendidik driku to discipline, x wasting time.... but, yg x best nye, less time wif family.. alhamdulillah, i got dis very loongggg holiday, have dis oppoturnity 2 spend time wif my fmily... congratz 2 everyone :) ... hope will c all of u soon...insyaAllah.. btw, ade satu bad news ni, one of our ren's father pass away on da same day we got da result.. hope, sape2 yg terbace ni, sedekah al-fatihah byk2...smoge rohnye dicucuri rahmat & dtempatkan di kalangan org2 yg soleh,...aminnn....

2day~~~~

salam.....alhamdulillah, masih berpeluang hidup, bernafas d bumi Allah ini... masih tertanye2 keadaan iman yg turun naek ni.. so today, cm bese je ... pg2 ( x lah pg2 bute, pg celik kot,,haha), mcm bes e...wat keje2 umah... menghdpi hari2 yg semakin memboringkan ni... tp ari ni best ckit, kmas n cuci2 dapur... ok gak, mengisi mase lapang.. n then tghari tgk la cite pape ntah... ptg tu, tman my mama amik abah kat meru... he juz got back from perak... visiting my beloved opah.. sian opah, hope she will get well soon... btw, from perak, he was sent to meru by my uncle..... abah x jd bwk kete blik perak, katenye pnat... xlarat nk bwk kete jaoh2... so blik tu, ptg2 kan...nk dkat maghrib... sgt jam... byk tol kete..my parents cbok bersembang kat dpan tu, i was alone back there.. mcm2 la mreke sembang... psl saham la , bisnes uptrend la, getting a new car la... kdg2 ak mencelah gak...but most of da time x ... bcoz da things dat dorunk ckp kan was not really my cup of tea... n then , i was left there , back, alone... termenung... pnjg.... smbil2 tgk kat luar tu... mcm2 gelagat org..... sonok jugak tgk dorunk ni...ade yg x saba2, ade yg cool je dlm jam2 pown... byk yg menarik perhatian ak... obviously, mmg rmai la nmpknye bru blik dr keje..... dr pakaian, riak2 wajah yg kepenatan... ade sorunk young mama ni...i think mayb her age abaou late 20 or early 30... dlm kete... ngan ank nye, baby dlm tmpat yg org slalu ltak baby tu... ak x taw la plak nmenye... dia asyik pndg ke arah kami je... mayb dlm pkiran die, teringat husband die kowt or mayb thinking bout her family in future, having many kids, naek mpv.u know, dat kind of stuff..mayb having a big fmily one day... hurrmm, byk jugak ak tgk dlm kete2 yg dlm jam ni, di dlmnye lelaki2 yg nmpknye spt bapa or ketua keluarge.. da tiredness is soo obvious... pnat kan, dr pg smpai ptg mencri rzeki utk keluarge... ak terpkir, sian kat parents 2 kte, cri rezeki utk kte...x penah skali pown ak dgr parents ak merungut... betape besar pengorbanan dorunk.. ak ni yg kdg2 x appreciate.. psl bnde2 kecik pown kdg2 merungut... ade satu ni yg sgt menarik perhatian ak... satu family, naek ats 1 moto.. parents n sorag ank..mest x selesa kan, dahla kiri kanan terdedah, sempit2 ni, kene tggu lame plak ats moto tu...tgk mke ayah die, mmg nmpk penat... tp, dsebabkan nk cri rezeki, nk pastikan ank die dpt ape yg terbaek, sume pown dtempuh...ak past mreke bkan dr golongan org yg senang... mayb dlm ati mreke, terdetik nk memiliki kereta spt org2 d sebelah atau d hdapannye... melihat org2 ini, membuatkan ak insaf... seringkali ak ni lpe bersyukur atas segale nikmat, wlaupun hdup x semewah mane, namun, alhamdulillah....semua nye mencukupi. malah lbeh dr ckup... d saat Allah nk uji ckit je, dh la rase beban sgt, padehal, hal cmtu xde ape pown ... sesgguhnye org laen lg berat n byk bebannye...kdg2, kte x sdar yg kte ni, time susa je bru nk tercari2...time senang, sumenye lpe... ak kdg2 tu teringat kesah chenta ak tu..haha..gwang je bunyi tp, tu lah ..iman ni goyah... cinta manusia yg slalu teringat2... rndu kat die,... buang mase je pkir sume tu... padehal , lg byk perkare berfaedah lg yg bleh dpikirkan... perkare2 lagha ni byk yg dibuatnye... kdg2 tgk cite best ckit, abes laa... sume keje x jd... kdg2 solat pown terlewat..... hish... trok tol... ak terpkir, kalo la dri sndri x ley nk disiplin, cmne la hdup d mase hdpan nant??mampu kah ak ni jd parents mcm mama abah ? Ya Allah, istiqamahkanlah aku d jalanMu...

16/04...

salam..huhhh!!!...sesuatu yg rase nk dlepaskan... 2day, hurmm.. kinda ...dunno how 2 say, shocking ke, memorable ke...ntahla.. actually, bout a month ago, actually,lbey kurg sbulan lbey la, nk dkat 2 blan.. ade sumtink ni, like swelling at my neck..hurmm..cervical lymph nodes swell..most probably due to infection.. bnde ni da stat sjak b4 exam es2 lg.. lame dah.. at 1st, g 1 klinik ni, he said, due to infection,.die bg antibiotik for 1 wik, tp ble da abes pown, xde efek.. ade gak tanye kat 2 org surgeon dat tought us during anatomy practical... dorang pown ckp bnde same, mest tanye symptom yg same..ade demam x? ade soar throat x? ..if dat occur, ianye mengconfirmkan bnde ni due to infection.. tp , xde.. so, agk mystery gak ar.. pastu, g jmpe doc lain.. die kate , kte observe dlu 4 1 wik, if x kecut bengkak tu, dtg blik.. so, mmg x kecut, g balik klinik yg same, but diff doc.ensem lak tu :b..hehehe...sempat lg ngintai..doc yg bagos ar, siap bg nasehat2,kinda like dakwah..dats gud..we rarely find dat kind of doc.. so, he gave me, antibiotik jugak...due to ke'bz'an yg teramat mase stdy wik, alwayz lpe mkn ubat tu...but, actually, b4 stdy wik tu, i was having fever..so, a bit relieve bcoz cm da confirm lah bnde ni infection.. unfortunately, disebabkn kedegilan ku dan kelekaan ku di dlm rutin harian,alwys x mkn ubt..bengkak tu dah makin enlarge.. menakutkan jugak... so, today, g klinik lg..hurmm..doc yg ke-6 ni.. he said dat, its getting kinda serious ...immediately, he said dat, he had to inject me wif antibiotic..bkan skali ye, 3 kali, in 3 days la..mengejutkan..x expect smpai cmtu.. ingatkan infection bese2 je..doc kate gak, if x elok gak, kene wat blood test.. hurmm... everythin happen in a sudden..x sgke.. mayb dis thing doesn't look so serious 4 sum of people, but 4 me.. agk menakutkan gak la... da beso2 cmni x sgke leh kene dis kind of thing.. x terpkir seserious ni.. mase mle2 kene , ingatkn bese2 je.. sbb most of da doctors says, infection je ni.. ble dah enlarge bnde tu, bnde ni da jd makin seyes.. hanya Allah yg tahu betapa risaunye ati ni sebenanye.. harap sumenye bjalan dgn lncar..hrp bnde ni akn sembuh.. Ya Allah, bntu lah hmbe Mu ini menempuh dugaan ini.. ak taw, Allah xkan membebankan sesiape dgn sesuatu yg x mmpu seseorg tu pikul.. tabahkanlah hatiku ya Allah.. ak berserah kepdMU.. manusia hanye merancg , hanye Engkau yang menentukannye.. semoga ujian ini mnjdkanku insan yg lbey taat kpdMu, moga ujian ini akn meningkatkan keimananku terhadapMu...smoge sape2 yg bce ni, doakan sye ea :) ...aminnn...

ES2+BIG APPLE

salam..... juz got back from college today...heheh... abes exam daaa... alhamdulillah, bleh la gak wat kalo nk dibandingkn dgn ES1 nyer exam... ni nk cite psl exam ari tu... 1st day, short essay ques.. x sgke lak , scare tbe2 part biochem is da toughest..huhuhu... yg laen,blehlaa...yg plg best,anatomy..hehehe... ospe pown ok, alhamdulillah... tp kan, da most saddest thing, osce, hurmm... i dun think dat i've done my best...neves glerrr, msuk2, alamak, primer tu yg head of da primer...pastu yg bg markah tu plak, lecturer ece...huhuhu... tataw la.. everythinG kinda messed up.. hurmmm... mcq pown bleh laa, better than ES1.. now ni, tawakallah...usaha sudah, kalo ade rezeki, insyaAllah... shbt2, doakan nana ye.. thanx kat korg sume,...THE BIG APPLE GURLS....hahaha..kalo korunk bce jgn marah aa. da mmg kte sume glerkan mende tu..hehehehe...nk taw x, ari tu kan, da kempunan nak sgt big apple, pas abes je paper last, EMJ, we straight away g segitiga bermuda tu...hehehe... blik dgn hepynyeee wif big apple...hehehehe.... but among all, da best part is, ktorunk beli sumtink yg same....sumtink dat, well i can say dat it symbolized us...hehehe...frens 4eva :)... i hope our ukhuwah will last 4 evr... till death brought us apart.... Allah, hope U bless our frenship... aminn... sayer syg kwn sayer :)

cns module :)

salam.....lamenye x tlis kat blog ni... really bz like a bee lately...hehehe... dealing wif bunch of info n notes of cns modul.. luv cns :) ... btol2 ni taw, really felt amazed n thankful to Allah.. His creations was....no words can interprete it.. it juz tooooo great... know wat, knowing how ur brain handling wif lots n lots of info from our own body, knowing da reflexes was juz really great n fantastic...Ya Allah, betape besarnye nikmat & agungnye ciptaan & kurniaanMu... jadikanlah hamba Mu ini istiqamah kepadaMu.... the most part dat i really luv is learning bout cerebrum... wif various parts which we called Broadman's Area, handling wif wide arrays of functions..yg ni lah my mama pnah ckp since i was small dlu, bkan la kecik sgt kowt, tp mase skola.. mama slalu kate taw x dkat brain kte ade part2 yg mengawal berbagai2 function..die slalu dgr kat ceramah2 motivasi... my mun nye fav motivator, dato' hj fadzilah kamsah n hm Tuah<----also my fav :b.. so, she always heard bout these things in their talks.. hurm.. so, since then i always curious 2 know how da brain function, how they cope wif responses, how they response n how the nerve tracts traveled in their own sequences.. make me feel xcited knowing all bout dis...hehehe.. lately, i juz luvvvv anatomy very much!!.. not like during 1st sem, i can get really stressed thinking bout anatomy, especially in musculoskeletal module..huhu...it was also a great oppoturnity 2 know more bout how da nerves travels, which part dat they innervate.. eventhough quit hard 2 remember each one of it...huhu.. gross pown best... dissect da bull's eye..a new experience.. ok gak ar, tp rasenye dissect white mice kat matrix dlu lg best.. but da sad thing is bout biochem sgs.. lpas ni xde dah,sbb in reproductive module xde biochem...sdey larr, x dpt jmpe dr justin lg... ske sgt da way he tought us... kat modul ni gak bru die exposed his wife, who is the lecturer of physio...also tought me in physio sgs.. physio+biochem...sgt complementary...sweet... :) ... pt pown ok jer...hehehehehehehe... tp mggu berakhir dgn agk tragis apbila diriku terpaksa present BEL/english next wik...huhu... mayb ade hikmahnye... xpe2... Allah xkan bebankan seseorg hambaNya dgn sesuatu yg x mmpu die pikul...so, weekend ni , berusaha sepenoh ati nk wat english...x sure lg, ermmm.... nk wat liposuction @ asperger syndrome @ burn surgery?? hurmmm...